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Jan 23 2020

Spiritual Living

There is a space beyond my mind and body where energy flows without hindrance. Where I am one with the Universe and we commune through energy alone. It is the energy of Love and Acceptance, the energy of Infinite Possibility and Grace. At times I have felt so connected, my body vibrates, totally alive with the recognition of Source Presence. This tells me I count. This tells me I am a person of substance. This reminds me that I am always seconds away from checking in and touching to Divine Energy.

I am not sure I could always live in that space. It is exhilarating and phenomenal. It moves me beyond body, thought, or encumbrances. It is all encompassing though eventually I am delivered back to this dimension, more peaceful and gentle, more centered and grounded. I marvel at these experiences. They come upon me when I least expect them. When I am seemingly just going about my business. They catch me like a practice in reverie, though without the thoughts and without anything of human substance. I am floating along in wholeness, existing in vibration.

These experiences remind me that I am more than my words, more than my convictions, more than this body. I am of the Oneness, eternal and always growing. I have a trajectory of being that eclipses all the negativity I have ever touched to. I cannot die and fade away into nothingness. No one really does that. I change states and keep on moving along. If I so choose, I can continue to explore pure Love, call it to myself, and keep setting down all that does not serve me. I can face my demons and amazingly, they leave me. I can create the Peace I seek. I am always connected to Love and Wholeness, regardless of the the ever present darkness, visible daily.

So I belong and I don’t belong. I belong to a world of ever changing possibility. I don’t belong to the woes, slings, and arrows that continue to challenge me to make a choice for Love. Those are the trail signs helping me to follow the Light. I do belong to seeking and wonder. I do belong to an inner knowing of integrity with self and others. I do not belong to the suffering of the world though I touch to it daily. It is my choice not to remain there. It is my choice to make another move towards clearing and balance, towards loving and forgiving, towards prayer and re-centering. I do belong to the vicissitudes of life though knowing they are informed by the blessings of a spiritual path evolving the formation of my human self.

Dec 18 2019

Inner Work Begets Miracles

Miracles have a tenuous place in the present world
They are often subject to deep suspicion
Because if miracles can truly happen
Your whole sense of a world without miracles will be disturbed

What if heart surgery can be received without cutting
Or if bones can be realigned by merely calling that to happen
What if you can schedule your perfect vacation with Divine Presence
What if you can heal from cancer through deep clearing of stuck energy

What if you can learn how to tell if you have an infection or virus
Or call in healing for toxic, damaging relationships
What if you can heal your immune system by calling in healing
What if you can receive all the energy you need through Divine vibration

Even if all these shifts can happen and they can
Every step to arrive and experience Divine healing
Must be taken in a Divinely ordered manner
To manifest a sure knowing of the vastness of the Universal Energy

This ordered manner though is not your concern
You just need to begin your inner work
All else is given as you move from topic to topic
Once you make a tiny effort, you will get powerful support

Start with that which is the most disturbing for you
Do not let those issues fester, they sap your energy
Suspend your misgivings and try, open Sacred Space,
Call in what you need and give thanks for what manifests

You will be heard though it may be a long road
To the place where you think you are going
You have to go through every step between the present
And where you hope to arrive. One day or months may be needed.

Start now and keep returning, there will be no regrets
Frustration at times, questioning at times, of course
Every time you clear stuck energy, you will feel lighter
You will feel more confident in being able to create peace

If you never start, you will be faced with the same issues repeatedly,
Even the next time your soul returns here for another run at life
You can really never escape the areas that need healing
Your soul is eternally calling you to your best self!

Resources

This Six-Step Spiritual Healing Protocol is a place to start.

This free, short Healing Yourself Tutorial is another place to start. (I narrate it.)

This is part 1 protocol healing steps if you are dealing with Chronic Issues.

This is part 2 protocol healing steps if you are dealing with Chronic Issues.

For more in-depth background, see my book.

Nov 07 2019

Arrive and Know IT Again for the First Time

beyond the stuffed spurious schedules
past all devastating trauma and unrelenting tension
there lies a space of openness and grace
awaiting your arrival in perfect timing

there is always an opening there for you
space to be, to listen, to hope, to dream
divine connection awaits your seeking
divine wisdom knows your name

you are accounted for with every breath of your being
every hair on your head is known to the Oneness
this begins at first birth and continues eternally
as you make your way through all life’s roadblocks

proactive effort can speed this along
setting down fears, doubts, and negative expectations
calling out the anger, blame, and self-flagellation,
clears up ancient imbalances, suffering, and pain

but simply showing up in a space where nothing is needed from you
begins to reignite the Sacred connection that has always been
even if you are depressed, feeling failure or in deep pain
there is respite in creating an opening for reaching beyond self

goodness, balance, abundance, and hope
await you through your inner journey to loving self
humor, joy, delight, and satisfaction
accompany the journey into inner peace

that is, after all the wailing and self blame
after all the soul crushing fear that you may not be enough
after all the amends have been faced and attended to
after all the woe, loss, and protection of self have softened

somehow though rather miraculously
just opening to Silence while seeking help
begins the journey to Wholeness
that awaits every single one of you

through every form you ever take
through every time you close yourself off
through every profound loss you have
through every soul devastating event you experience

the Oneness is always waiting and open to you
the still small voice of love and encouragement
never fades no matter how long we take
to arrive and know It again for the first time*

* From TS Eliot, The Four Quartets

“We shall not cease from exploration
And the end of all our exploring
Will be to arrive where we started
And know the place for the first time. “

Sep 18 2019

Peace Calling Loudly

You who seek peace find the road in fits and starts
Events occur that seem awful but are for your own healing
It can seem there is no how-to language book for Spiritual evolution
However, wholeheartedly seek peace and it comes your way

Set down all expectations of what getting to peace looks like
Lasting peace lies beyond all challenges and inconveniences
Hides behind pain, frustration, anger, self-flagellation, and guilt
Explore within, listen deeply, and seek the root of the imbalance

Humbly accept that 10 times out of 10, the core imbalance is within you
Has been waiting until you can pay attention and get the real message
Waiting until all the needed previous healing has been addressed
Bringing you to the deep dwelling darkness, just waiting for healing

All your anger, frustration, rage, and irritation get you absolutely nowhere
Those feelings make up the endless stream of life’s drama
Those emotions are wearing to the mind, body, and soul
They zap your energy and motivation to be peaceful inside

Negative emotions manifest and challenge your very sense of yourself
They literally weigh you down as they barely vibrate, draining other energy
Causing push back, angst, and discord throughout your life
Manifesting as huge traumas repeating over and over again

They exist because the fierce emotions get your attention immediately
They cause a reaction that you can not ignore
Repeated anger, shame, fear, or guilt are impossible to ignore
They are ringing your doorbell, a call to pay attention now

Before inner seeking, you think the strong emotions are the right answer
Though they are the total opposite from the desired reaction
After thousands of strong reactions and draining feelings
A blessed few go inside to seek peace, answers, and release from being triggered

Wonderful, that is an awesome first step!
The inner landscape with a quiet connection to Spirit
Can help you truly understand the lessons waiting to be learned
The buried darkness manifesting as outer negative emotions

So if you have tumultuous drama in your life of any kind
This is actually a call to Silence, and inner seeking
It is a call to wake up to that which no longer serves you
It is a call to listen deeply to your inner knowing for change to occur

You can ignore these inner callings manifesting as conflict or mishaps
For as many lifetimes as you so desire
They will still be waiting for you, the next time around
Through ever increasing difficulties urging you to act

How many more lifetimes do you want to repeat the same problems ?
How may more conflicts and negative feelings are you going to endure?
Until you take a long, look inside to see what may be not be serving you
And determine what you need to set down and command out of your energy field

New relationships, different work settings, new duds, or new surroundings
Will keep presenting the same tough issues, until you get it
Until you listen within for what is out of balance
Until you name the stuck unseen energy and command it out of your field

Resistance is futile
The same issues repeat over and over again
Throughout all eternity
Until you clear away the detritus and discover peace within

Sep 11 2019

Finding inner peace

I like the idea of inner peace but truly I am always close to turmoil
I have either just come from turmoil or am just about to enter into it
I know if I can get a free day to do anything I want, that helps
I know if I take a Silence break, I can feel some peace and lightness

I wrestle with my mind lots of the time
I have these feelings of not being good enough
At what, it does not seem to matter
Just generally feeling not good enough permeates my mind

I do sometimes have peaks of satisfaction and joy
I do have moments of real peace and presence
I would love to have more of these but I often get sideswiped
When I least expect that and I find myself getting taken out

Anger is a tough nut to crack
It rises up and I can’t seem to just let it go
It feels like it is trying to get out of me
That it knows I would be better off without it

Seeking some inner peace is something I want to be better at
I sometimes sit and go inside with breath and quiet
When I get to a quiet mind, I can feel lighter
I can touch to a flowing energy of order and ease

The issue is why do I push so hard?
Why don’t I make time to breathe and relax?
What is so important that I rush around all the time?
Perhaps I don’t feel I deserve to feel ease and peace?

I call in more love for myself, more deep wellness and kindness
I call in more flowing grace in my life, with laughter and delight
I call in more kindness for myself and towards others
I call in more healing grace for all the things I think I need to carry

If there is a space of Divine order, I call that in for me too
I want to be more loving, happy, and peaceful
I set down all the darkness, worry, and anger I have packed away
I open this day to joy, loving kindness, inner peace, and hope

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